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Literature
Together Forever
Together Forever
Transformers belongs to Hasbro
POV: 3rd person
Warnings: cursing, angst, mention of and character death
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“Moon, you’ve gotta have some energon” Audico said. Moonracer just shook her head at her brother’s best friend. She hasn’t been eating or talking for days. Just crying, always crying. “Moon, please. Everyone’s worried. Please, just have a sip at least. Or come out of your room. You’ll feel better.” She just shook her head again. Audico sighed, frowned and walked out of the room. Moonracer just laid back down on her berth in a fetal position and started crying again. Her hand clutched the one thing that she felt kept her connected to Sideswipe. A teal crystal  he got her only a month after they’d first started their relationship. It meant the world to her for as long as she had it. She never took it off scared to lose it. Now she felt like it was her one lifeline, the one thing keeping her alive when all
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Literature
Like a Phoenix...
back again
into our lives
hurting us
lying to us
he doesnt care
he never did
he turns us against each other
making us feel worse
we think we can trust him
we know that we shouldnt
we listen to him
we know that he lies
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye FINAL part 8
Bye Bye Bye Final Part 8
POV: Moonracer
True story
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: upset, depression, angst
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I listened as Blast explained everything. And held back a sigh of relief as she explained the pot thing. ‘She’s not as stupid as I thought she acted at that moment’ I went to hug her, but she got up, crying. And walked out the room. I got up from the berth and followed her. I took her wrist. “Blast wait” I said quietly. “I hate seeing you upset and crying cuz of what I did too. I’m scared is all. I know your scared too. But can we at least be friendly with each other for now? Work on fixing ourselves and letting time get us to be friends again? Please?” I hugged her. Hoping that she’d hug back as a form of agreement. I was scared that she’d just walk off, but I hoped, with all my spark, that she’d hug back.
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye FINAL part 6
Bye Bye Bye Final Part 6
POV: Moonracer
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: angst
True story....sorta
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I didn’t think that anyone would know I was crying. Sides and Jazz were out on patrol and I handt spoken to anyone but them. I hadn’t even left my room since I came back to base, so when Blast’s unfamiliar armor pressed against mine as she whispered “I’m sorry…” my face shot up out of my hands and I stared at her like she had three optics. ‘She’s never around me. She’s always scared to be around me. What if she’s high?’ I thought.
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(flashback)
“Promise not to tell,” Kristen said, her voice shaking slightly and her body movements frantic.
“Please” Joy said, echoing Kristen’s plead, her voice and body movements sorta like Kristen’s.
“I won’t” I replied keeping the panic out of my voice. I knew something was bad if they had turned to me and Shambavi for help. Something wa
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye FINAL Part 4
Bye Bye Bye Final part 4
POV: Moonracer
True Story...sorta
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: angst
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I felt Blast shiver against me as I hugged her, then she broke the hug and took a few steps back. I just stood there, shocked still in a parallel first position with my arms out in a rough second, as if I had my arms around two children smaller than me. I dropped my arms and stepped back until I was in Side’s and Jazz’s warm arms again. Tears formed in my optics. I couldn’t believe it. Jazz and Sides stood there, just as shocked and surprised by this. A breeze picked up and I finally noticed just how cold I was, inside and out. Jazz felt me shiver against him. ~Come on, babe, let’s get you inside~ he said through the bond as he took me into his arms. Sides walked next to Jazz as Jazz carried me in bridal style, sunny and Blast following a short distance behind. I looked back a bit and, through the tears formed at my optics, I thought I saw tears forming at
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Literature
A second in time
a second in time
to hug her
to show her
just how much i care
just how much i hurt
she hurts too
i can see it
i can feel it
almost as if i can taste it when she walks by
that metal like taste
overflowing in your mouth
like romeo and juliet
were not allowed to be friends
if only they didnt hate
if only we werent scared
i'd hug her
even for just a second in time
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye Final Part 2
Bye Bye Bye Final part 2
POV: Moonracer
True Story
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: angst..
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I drove up to the entrance of base, my headlights shining on a tear-streaked but smiling Sides, a dull visored, tired looking but at the same time happy Jazz, Sunstreaker holding Blast close, smiling slightly and a very terrified Blast. I transformed back into my robot mode slowly, cautiously and surprised. “Hey” I said quietly. Before I knew it Jazz and Sides had me in a tight embrace, Sides was so happy he was crying. And Jazz was on the verge of crying, his visor became misty. After finally being let go of by Jazz and Sides I shared a brother-sister like hug with Sunny. And then, following my spark’s only desire at that moment, I hugged Blast tight, like sisters do when they’ve missed each other. I held back the tears, terrified of her reaction and hoping that she’d hug back. I knew we’d need the time to ourselves so that we’d cool down a bit mo
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye Part 10
Bye Bye Bye Part 10
POV: Moonracer
True story
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: angst
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Blackness surrounded me as the song ‘Scars” by Papa Roach swam in my head. Memories flooded my head, the snow day, all the days of camp with our friends from a year ago, Halloween week in camp, days at the lake spent with Sides and Sunny. I didn’t notice when my systems came back online and that I was singing, “'Cause you channeled all your pain. And I can't help you fix yourself. You're making me insane. All I can say is: I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut. And my weakness is that I care too much. And our scars remind us that the past is real. I tear my heart open just to feel. I tried to help you once., Against my own advice. I saw you going down,  but you never realized that you're drowning in the water. And I offered you my hand. Compassion's in my nature. Tonight is our last end. I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut. And my weakness is that I care
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye part 8
Bye Bye Bye Part 8
POV: Moonracer
True story
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: angst
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my optics were open, i was staring into my pale, almost lifeless reflection in the mirror I saw myself on my knees, a puddle of tears under me. I shook as I had hypothermia. I wanted to have hypothermia. At that moment all I wished was for all of this to end. ~I-I can’t~ I answered. ~When I close my optics I see her, glaring at me. Like she’s about to pull out a gun and shoot me…she hates me Jazz. I can’t be around her if she hates me.~  I was still crying hard. I knew I’d pass out soon, I hadn’t had energon in days. ~Jazz I’m so sorry….I’m so, so sorry~ I sent through the bond, as I suddenly became dizzy and saw black spots. My arms collapsed under me and I fell onto the floor, all systems off-lining as I went into unconsciousness.
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye part 6
Bye Bye Bye part 6
POV: Moonracer
True story
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Warnings: Angst
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I was shaking. Crying did that to me. I cried way too much. I needed to do something to help myself. To let out my emotions in another way. Dance. Something that I hadn’t done since I left this city years ago. I opened the door to a room with the walls covered in mirrors. I turned on the CD player. I didn’t care what would come up. I’d be able to dance to it. Somehow. A song I hadn’t listened to came on. And I knew I’d be able to do this. I offlined my optics,  I didn’t need to watch myself, and started this game of grace, balance and passion. I kept going, the faces of my friends and bondeds popping into my face. Tears cascaded down my cheeks but I kept dancing until I heard it. Him. ~Moon, please answer~ Jazz cried through the small remains of the bond. I fell out of a pirouette, onto my knees. I couldn’t believe this. ~J-jazz?~ I asked, unable
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Literature
Bye Bye Bye Part 4
Bye Bye Bye Part 4
POV: Moonracer
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
Based off a true story
Warnings: angst and a lot of it
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I walked the streets of the city, Vos. It was late. Neon signs hung on each building. Friends, family and lovers crowded in each club, lounge, restaurant, and store. I felt nothing. Nothing but the cold, hard emptiness within my spark and body. I didn’t feel pain, nor pleasure. Just emptiness. I’d left my family. Even if I wasn’t related to anyone there. They were my family. They knew me well. And I got up and left.
Hands shaking I looked at the glass window of a store. 'That’s not me', I thought. It couldn’t be. I looked way too different. I touched my cheek and the femme in the window touched hers. Hands shaking I brought them up to my face, as if that femme was a clone that I had to fight off. She did the same. I was about to punch the window, but I stopped. I didn’t want to pay for the damages I’d make. So I walked off, fa
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Literature
I'm Done.I'm Gone.
I’m Done. I’m Gone.
Transformers is owned by Hasbro
POV: Moonracer
Warnings: angst
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I looked at the devastated faces of my bondeds, Jazz and Sideswipe. I looked at my face in the mirror. I looked worse. As if I’d been crying for 4 days straight and not sleeping. Which wasn’t entirely incorrect. I had been crying for 4 days and I’d only been getting 3-4 hours of  sleep. I was as close to depression as you can get and I was dragging Sides and Jazz down with me. Tears formed in my optics again as I took in the fact that I’m a horrible bonded and an even worse friend. I’d gossiped about something that should of never left the borders of my mind. Hurt my Wildblast over and over again and now Sides and Jazz had to pay the price with me. I noticed I was crying again and felt the warmth from Jazz as he held me close to him again for what seemed the thousandth time that day. I kept on crying and Sides held me close too. My spark ached. Their spar
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Literature
untitled
i look at you
distaste on my face
what i wouldnt do
to get rid of you
youre with your friends
glaring at me
what you wouldnt do
to get rid of me
we stand close to each other
hands formed into fists
we didnt want this
we never did
we look at each other
about 20 feet apart
what we wouldnt do
to get rid of the other
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Literature
healing
it takes time to heal
but in this situation i'm healing fast
i'm probably not gonna be exactly the same
but i'll be myself again,
i'll be myself again soon.
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Literature
Giving Up? Giving In?
burning fire
white hot pain
racing up your veins
is it death?
is it only pain?
will you give up?
will you give in?
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Literature
Fighting Fire With Fire
fighting fire with fire
revenge, hate
things that make us human
things that make us hurt
things that never really help
forgiveness, love
things that bring us up
things that help us heal
things that everyone needs to help them
fire
used correctly it can make things light up, like a candle
used wrongly and it can bring a city down
brings chaos to lives
brings sadness and hate
fighting fire with fire never works
people get burned
hearts become crippled
friendships are ruined
only ashes are left
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jmdancer96
Moonracer
United States
Current Residence: autobot city
MP3 player of choice: iPod nano (the newest one)
Interests
  • Listening to: Sandstorm by Darude
  • Reading: Simple and Clean Part 4
  • Watching: my facebook page
  • Playing: pool in my family's game room
  • Eating: gonna go eat dinner soon.
  • Drinking: nothing. thirsty as hell though..
so things are going ok with friends. we're moving on and trying not to let the past haunt us. of course people are still being stereotypical/haters/blah blah blah(whatever u wanna call them) but we're not letting them get in our way!

saddly, a new fanfic i started writing is now lost..possibly forever cuz my stupid laptop got a virus! oh no! and now i cant remember what i wrote(and i worked so hard on it). =( me is upset and i wanna take a hammer to that piece of junk. i need a new laptop. one without a broken screen. so until my i can persuade my parents to get me a new laptop i might not be on as often as i'd like =(

school's not that great this year. i'll mange..somehow. lol. so, how's life for you?

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jookami Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2009
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no problem! :heart:
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Thanks a lot for the :+fav:!<3
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no problem! :heart:
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Thanks for faving Sparkloves! :XD:
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no prob! =D
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THANKS FOR FAV! :heart:
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